It’s been 14 years since the tragic death of heavy metal frontman Mitch Lucker. Now, on the anniversary of his passing, his Suicide Silence bandmate Mark Heylmun has made a heartbreaking admission.

In a post on Instagram , the deathcore guitarist penned, “I don’t have any more pictures of Mitch and me to share. I’ve shared them all at one point or another.”

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He went on to add, “The more time that passes since he’s been gone, the more I find where the grief of his passing lives. I only knew him as a friend for seven years. Memories fade, and while the memory of him never fades, the memories of the times we spent together do.”

Reflecting on some fond memories, Heylmun shared, “I cherish all the big moments we had. All the trips we took together, tours, festivals, press tours, ‘pretty good for a small s**tty a** show’ shows, the holiday BBQs at his house, or the times he crashed on my parents’ couch and spent time with my dad ripping cigs on the front porch.…