i hate myself not sure if the is the right place for this but i need to get this off my chest and tell someone and i know i should ask about therapy but if i do they will tell my mom everything and she already struggles so much and i dont want to put that on her and i dont want her to treat me any differently because im messed up in the head but here it goes i guess. i hate myself for many reasons and i dont where to start so ill start here\] im a male Christian, but i like men and i hate myself for it because i know its wrong and i feel like i let everyone down all the time and im lazy and i feel like i suck at everything i do and i let everyone down i let down my soccer team and my family more times than i count and im a horrible friend all i do is complain and im selfish and i dont feel like im there for him when he needs but hes been there for me whenever i was in my deepest lows and he is selfless and he is able to tell when im feeling down or off bur im just a bad friend and i have trust issues and im…