Wondering if anybody else has this issue. Often times I find help for people who have been ghosted, but not for people who ghost. I guess this version of it is too specific?

I’ve tried for years to make online friends to no avail. I can’t even pinpoint what exactly happens. It’s just too overwhelming for no clear reason. I feel so bad about whatever hurt I might have caused, even though we rarely ever get an entire conversation in before it happens.

It just seems to be so unrewarding and pointless. I have to pretend to be a normal well-adjusted adult for an undetermined amount of time just for the chance to possibly make a friend? I genuinely don’t understand how anybody does this. I don’t care enough about how they are or whatever they’re up to at the moment. I know the point of small talk, but it feels torturous and exhausting when I do it anyway.

Even if its a person I hang out with in real life, whatever connection we had disintegrates once there’s distance.…