I have tried it earlier in 2022 and want to do it again, I have been chronically depressed for all this while and want to end my suffering. I have no one who actually cares about me, I don't feel like doing anything and honestly I don't want to explain it to anyone that what all has happened to me and why am I like this. One this is that I feel sad for myself and want to reward myself with an end to all this suffering.