I hope there are drawing artists here that could also help as I’m not sure where to ask this

So I used to like drawing

particularly with the pencil as I could get really into detail with it

Then I tried oil pastels and watercolor

Wasn’t the best at it

I sort of gave up and stopped art completely as I got busy with life and depressed

Now I want to go back to it since I’m somewhat free and I have many ideas written down that I really want to do and I want to learn watercolor a lot

But I can’t seem to think about it with having an “action plan” or steps which ruin the fun of it

I also wanted to get into crochet multiple times but I also tend to be a “if I can’t do it once and fail I give up” and I also make up in my head a “action plan”

I don’t know how to enjoy these hobbies and have them as fun without being too “practical” with

I always delay these hobbies even when I have all the supplies needed because I’m waiting for the “perfect time” idk what that is and I delay starting them because of fear…