parents, grandparents, teachers, whoever, all couldn't stop talking about how I had a promising future and how I was so bright. who knows what kind of scientist she will be?? or maybe a great artist? she has such a good life ahead of her!! I was always as dumb as I am now. I was just lucky. now that I'm in the adult world, where things actually matter, I'm failing this semester, cutting myself every day, spending all of my time in bed and overall wasting my youth.

I wanted to believe that I was special, that I had something good and that I had potential but it's all over now. I will die of suicide sooner or later