Life forces me to keep trying hard and that its mandatory for me to work hard to survive idk it feels a lil too much for me i js want to sleep for eternity idk if its js me acting like a coward and a lazy bum but idk anymore tho i wont want to die cuz im scared i js want to sleep locked away somewhere idk is it js ease of life thats making me do this i know im all alone in this world once my parents die i would be left all alone ..i need to grow up im almost 17 now but..why cant i seem to grow up why do i feel like a loser why am i so afraid of everything i hate my timid personality