Tl;dr I am slowly learning to live with a severe depression, my career is failing, but at least I am not alone. When I had my first ever internship during my BSc, my mind was filled with nothing but excitement. I was finally doing the thing I studied years for. I was going to apply what I have learned in a company that will benefit from the things I know. Sure, I start at the bottom of the ladder, but surely if I do well I will do better, right? I continued working there as a student. In hindsight, I did so in a very demotivated state. I told myself it was because I was also doing school aside from it. I knew deep down that it didn't matter what I had to do, because I didn't feel motivated to do the work I was assigned. When you're a junior, that's not an issue. You're learning, you're bound to write bad code. But this feeling didn't go away. It was the same setup for my final internship. I started very confidently, very motivated, and after week three I had lost motivation.…