life is beyond ruined at 26

I spent half my life after high school chasing a career just because my family pressured me into it, only to leave it mid-way due to anxiety. Now, I have no degree. I am terrified of being uneducated, so I need to find a program to finish. By the time I graduate, I will be 30 or 31, and hopefully, I will get a job around 32.

If I want to change my career again, I will be starting a master's degree at 36 or 37, and I’ll be 40 after gaining some work experience. Then, I’ll be alone in my 40s because I feel like I have no personality and everything bad happens to me. Time seems to move faster and faster, so before I know it, I’ll be 50 and sick because I don't eat well—and then, boom, death.

I’m just so confused right now.…