Im just gonna keep it simple so maybe someone can give suggestions. I moved to the US and now im at the other side of the globe compared to my friends and we kinda stopped talking a bit. But what hurts me is that my closest friend ever is slowly forgetting about me and this made me realize i might be romantically into them and i cant do anything about it. Ever since 8th grade i felt like life didnt have a purpose for me. I havent had any big achievements in life. I am failing classes like i always have . Losing my friends. In fact i never even had a girlfriend or a situationship or whatever.i have attempted multiple times and i either got too scared to finish it or it failed. I always get suicidal when im alone so i always wanted a girlfriend to talk to everyday so i can forget about it. Now that im all by myself i just cant get out of my bed because everything seems pointless. I honestly understand why nobody has liked me. I also have developed bpd and hurts everyday. Whatever i try to do i lose passion.…