20f I'm having a breakdown in my hotel bathroom, I hate my stupid fucking life so much, I've been homeless since I was a teenager because of my abusive family, I lost my best friend, I lost my support animal, I had to deal with a bunch of other bad people, I've moved from state to state, my mom is homeless and lost her job, my grandpa has cancer and is dying, I dont really talk to the rest of my family or really have any of them in my life, I have no real friends, I jave no expirence, Im diagnosed autistic, I jave ptsd and extremely terminally bad social anxiety, I'm a loser, I cant talk to people, I cant go outside without having being stressed out, I'm a stupid crybaby, I'm sharing a hotel with my bum ass friend who steals my money and my food and doesn't do anything at all, nobody will hire me, our hotel is litterly in the middle of nowhere and all the job recruitment center places are in other cities, don't have that much money, I've been barely eating, I've been living off shitty gas station food, I've…