autumn 09 I had sex for money

it’s a thing I used to do

but what’s unusual here

was the booking that came in

a man whose name and face I don’t recall

ordered

something called a lesbian show

I was on duty with anastacia

a wonderful person

who in her tracksuits and with her coarse

tongue was all the things

I wished

I was

well anyway, we did the show

and I lost sight of

the man completely

all I felt was

anastacia

what am I trying to say

I guess I feel like

now and then

in times of hardship

there can still be

pockets of affection

I left the brothel

when I got my first writing grant

I could hardly wrap my head around

the hundred grand in my account

I’d spent so long

in government offices

begging for such basic things

and suddenly the money was just there

no questions asked

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there’s a website

where escorts’ clients can review what

they call

their goddesses

I got largely

positive write-ups

beautiful and seems

very innocent

it said

although

one minor niggle

my…