I’m a 20 year old woman, and I’ve been depressed for a long while now. It’s probably been around 7 or so years that I’ve felt like this. I’ve lived for others since then. When I was younger I was living so my parents wouldn’t be sad, and now it’s the same shit except I have to live because I want my girlfriend to live a better life. She’s not poor, per se, just lower class and living with her mother. I live with my parents as well, but we are much better off. So now, the only thing keeping me alive is my love for my girlfriend, and wanting her to have a better life. Having depressing thoughts at work? I’m doing this for her. Having depressing thoughts doing schoolwork? I’m doing this for her. Having depressing thoughts at any time? I need to stay alive for her. It sucks hard because when I lose motivation or have issues with schoolwork, I guilt trip myself to hell because it feels like I’m failing her specifically.…