Its been 2 years now. But life has just been one giant mess, I have been unable to focus, but I do try harder, my relationship with everyone has been distant.

Btw I am 38.

I want to be left alone, yet I want to be around people. But every time I meet others, I regret meeting them.

My self confidence is at an all time low. I am always broke.

I used to be pretty good at my job, but my luck has not been the best carreer wise and that's why I have been unable to secure a decent job since few months.

My life has always been pathetic, but after the attempt I feel it's gotten worse. I almost feel like I am being punished (I am not even religious).

Therapy and the meds aren't helping either. Nothing brings me joy and worst is I feel people around me are not supportive enough. Some of them don't even care if I would do it again.…