Hello all!

I will be starting my very first job out of school as a Physician Assistant in MI. I’m excited, however I am absolutely terrified. I developed OCD and more cPTSD triggers during school. I also was the most depressed and anxious I ever was.

We had to do rotations during school, obviously to learn hands on before becoming a provider. I had some great experiences, but always very awful ones. Bully providers, toxic environments, you name it.

My job is in primary care and everyone seems so nice and supportive so far. Everyone there obviously knows I’m new and will need a lot of support. I will have 3 months of training before I start seeing patients on my own. This makes me feel better, but I just cannot get rid of all the terrible things that happened during school. When I think about starting work in the next week and half, I just get a pit in my stomach and want to throw up.

Before you ask, yes I am on Prozac lol. Any advice is much appreciated!