I'm at university now and I have some friends here. Many of them have jobs, good skills, a lot of knowledge, they are organized and they seem to still have the spark in themselves...

I feel very lost and I feel like I didn't mature enough due to my mental health issues during my teenage years I'm still in the mindset that everything seems to hard for me. It makes me even more depressed realizing I could be a different person if only I didn't make any mistakes and wasn't ill at the time.

It's so hard to get out of bed, it's too hard to study, I struggle with cleaning and cooking. I know I should just learn those skills but I don't feel like I can do anything. Cooking and cleaning is so overwhelming, going to classes is tiring enough for me, even if I love my study course. I usually tell myself I did a good job for just going to classes cause I don't wanna waste my parents financial support and the time I spent here.

I wanted to get a job and I can't find anything for like a 1,5+ year now.…