kind of a long winded rant that i probably will just end up deleting the entire post lol i think i just need to fully type it out but any advice is appreciated

for starters i am quite lonely and do not have many friends or people in general and a part of that is due to the fact that i feel like put in all of the effort and no one ever gives anything back. rest assured that i do not actively keep score or anything of the sort, but i feel like i put in significantly more effort into my relationships than they are willing to and i am very frustrated by it. i feel like such an afterthought a lot of the time because i will go out of my way to show my appreciation for those i care about and it seems as if no one wants to or frankly cares enough to do the same and i truly cannot understand why. i understand not everyone has the same love language and that is fine but no one bothers to text me or contact me at all and when they do i get sort of upset because it never feels / is actually genuine.…