For the past couple of years i've been struggling with my mental health and it just keeps getting worse. I've beem going to therapy for a long time and my environment is aware of me having issues, but they just can't accept it.

I'm severely mentally unstable, I just go up and down all the time and iis not something i can control. I go from being okay, doing a bunch of things and not getting tired, to the worst depressive episodes ever where i'm not even a thinking human being. It is cyclic and i dont know how to stop it.

On the other side, feeling things in general is a fucking nightmare. I dont have a lot of emotions on a normal basis, i dont get excited or happy, even feeling sad is hard for me sometimes. I can only feel annoyed, angry, disgusted or bored; and even when I do experience those emotions, they feel blured and i can't really percieve them. But here comes the catch, when i do have emotions, is like im being killed.…