I lost a part of myself when I recently had a massive meltdown. Something's really wrong and it feels like after I had it that I refuse to put effort on stuff. It's always half hearted.

I have OCd and depression. I dont really want to say depression since I have an appetite and usually when I have it I dont have any interest in eating.

I had several therapy for OCD but I still feel wrong in some waya like I just want to rest play games, or read mangas or comics.