i'm 26+audhd, been smoking medical for a few years now and it's been the only thing i've ever tried that makes me feel vaguely human, but it gets expensive in my state. i've been to psychs and perscribed every kind of med for my issues with very little success, including esketamine.

can't work can't drive and have no social life so when i can't do any of my hobbies (art, gaming, both impossible when my cubital tunnel feels worse) i smoke.

the biggest problems i face daily are skin sensitivity (shirt tags, fabric, hair, literally anything) overstimulation from sound, decision fatigue, ideation when bored (happens almost instantly), arfid, and insomnia/generally poor sleep.

i write down steps of things i need to do which can either help or completely overwhelm me into shutting down, and i can wear headphones on days when they won't give me a headache, but otherwise i have no idea how to improve anything. it gets so bad that i have meltdowns from it all (particularly the skin sensitivity) when i can't smoke.…