I can’t do this dude. I just turned 18. I don’t have hope. Since August2020 ish things have been so shit for me and it hasn’t gotten better. I cant believe how long ago that was, I even moved countries in between and I still haven’t escaped the cycle. nothing sticks I can’t bare to go on like this. now I will shower and go to bed for 3 hours then wake up and go to school trying to tolerate myself and my surroundings for the day, I’m so sad, I can’t handle anything