I'm M (37), married with 2 sons, one of them is just 2 months old.

I work in Southeast Asia, I would say I'm middle class. My income is just enough for living, not really enough for entertainment. And my income is fully transparent to my wife, she manages it. My relationship with my wife is actually fine.

For my social life, I'm pretty much unsocial now, both on social media and in real life. In real life I don't meet or hang out with friends anymore because of financial reasons, it would just cost money, so I cut it off.

My condition right now is I just feel tired of life. Sometimes I have thoughts like, instead of being this tired, it would be better to just die. Quite often I have thoughts about how to end it. But whenever I think about that, I also feel scared and worried about what will happen to my two kids and my wife afterwards.

And I did go to a psychiatrist. I was diagnosed with anxiety disorder and depression and was prescribed medication.…