r/mentalhealth

6h ago

u/Fleabag2005

I (21M) thought I was gay for years, but now I'm attracted to women. How do I tell a girl my history without feeling like I lied?

Question

Growing up, I was a very shy kid. I was sexually molested by my cousin. In eighth grade I moved to a completely different school. It was a high-profile school costing around 4,000 rupees a month, which was a huge amount for my parents. My father is a driver and a government employee.

The school felt extraordinary to me. It had big buildings and big classrooms. I didn't have to take my shoes off before entering the computer lab, and I didn't have to touch the teachers' feet to greet them. It was all new and fascinating.

I made out with a boy in my class, and he told everyone I gave him a BJ. That led to bullying. I had a feminine voice and feminine features, and I got bullied badly. I had no one to eat lunch with, so I ate alone, sometimes in the washroom, sometimes crying and running away from it all.…