Hello, I am new to Reddit. I wanted to share what I'm going through and I am open to any advice or experiences others might share.

​A year ago, I remembered that I suffered sexual abuse in my childhood by a teacher—a memory my mind had blocked for years. Even before remembering, I used to have recurring nightmares of being chased or of someone telling me they had been abused as a child. My sexual relationships have never been satisfying, and I've never understood why people are so focused on or talk so much about sex, while for me it is something I have never enjoyed.

​When the memory came back a year ago, I started experiencing panic attacks, excessive hypervigilance, and worse nightmares. Now, something else is happening: I have a second memory involving the same teacher when I was 11 years old. He taught an elective class where there were only three students, and one day the other two didn't show up, so I was left alone with him for an hour.…