I’m 17 and I got my cat as a birthday present when I was 3, i grew up with her and my entire life she’s been the only one in the house I can trust and love. I’m nowhere near ready to lose her but I’m gonna be 18 in 6 months and I know it’s gonna happen soon. My gecko recently passed from old age and I cried so much I couldn’t breathe. I’m terrified for how it’s gonna affect me when she passes. She’s been my bestfriend for so long and I’m not ready to live life without her but I can’t help but think it’s not fair to grieve her when she’s still here like I’m thinking it into existence. How do I stop thinking this way everytime I see her.