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I think this is a fear I've always had, but with my OCD compulsions it's only gotten worse, it's like a mix of a fear that I'm actually being watched, or the fear of fame.

Like me getting famous for some reason or another and people digging up my past like they do lolcows, or stalking me. I know it's irrational because frankly I don't want to be famous and I don't have any interest in being that way.

But this paranoia is a part of the reason I try to stay away from sleeping near windows, or keeping the curtains closed.

I've also been online and unfortunately made the stupid decision to face reveal to people I haven't known that long/in servers I've only been in for a couple of weeks. So apart of my fear is that coming back to me, people taking my face and somehow finding out where I live or where I work. I regret not taking the chance to delete that stuff when I had the chance. But there's nothing I can do now.

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Paranoia that I'm being watched/someone's coming to get me.