Sorry I just want to yell into the void. Everything has been so bad these past few years, I graduated years ago but I can't find a single job, and whatever side gig I have currently is on a halt because of issues out of my hand.

Everyone keeps blaming me for things I have no hand in, and they only tell me to take their anger out on me.

I'm so sick of everything, it's getting worse lately. I've always had passive suicidal ideation, but recently I've been waking up everyday thinking I should go through with it. I'm not going to, but it's on my mind more than ever and it's stressing me out even more than my life already has.

I have close friends, and they're really the only good thing going on for me, but I know I shouldn't keep burdening them when they've got their own lives to worry about too. All of us aren't in the best situation, I don't want to burden people.