Hello, I am hoping to get some guidance.

I've been practicing Qi Gong for a few years, but I am now finding the movements difficult due to a lot of lower back pain flare-ups over the last 8 months, probably triggered by emotional stuff if I'm honest. Because of this, I am looking to focus less on standing or moving meditative techniques, and more on laying or seated practices.

I find focusing on the breath very difficult without the physical flow of Qi Gong, which is why I found the practice in the first place. I have a long history of anxiety, and lately, I've been able to get in touch with what feels like a young part of myself that is honestly pure despair and grief. It feels separate to everything else. Like a dark void but it feels young. I don't know if that makes any sense. I've tried a bit of Metta meditation, but I wondered if anyone else has been able to soothe these sorts of parts?

I feel like fear runs my life a lot of the time, and I am in a constant battle with it.…