I was a consistent meditator about a decade until the last few few years when school had slowly taken over all of my attention. Last week I hit a brick wall manifested as a severe, 48-hour anxiety attack where I felt manic and wanted to crawl out of my own skin. By the end of the second day things were feeling much better but the overstimulation was still lingering. I decided to start meditating again to find some inner grounding.

Today I did 10 minutes where I tried to connect to source energy for gentle healing. Well, it had the opposite effect! I suddenly became very hot and nauseous right in my solar plexus, felt heat tingling throughout my limbs, my heart was contracting harder and faster and I just felt all over ill. But I wanted to trust the process so I sat through it, not wanting to resist it. After the 10 minutes I opened my eyes and felt even more anxious just by using them.…