I mentioned in my last post how I was focusing on the fan as an external anchor, and then my awareness would shift inward, deep inside my body, making me more aware of my breath and heartbeat. This would make me anxious, creating a feedback loop.

Many people suggested that instead of using an external anchor, I should try going inside my body and practising it, and that it would become easier with time.

So, this is what happened after that.

I started by sitting comfortably in my chair in reclined position and focusing on the fan. As I relaxed, I started becoming more aware of my body. I could feel my breathing, heartbeat, swallowing, and other bodily sensations quite strongly. Instead of trying to control these sensations or force my attention back to the fan, I decided to let the body do its own thing.

For example, if my breathing felt uncomfortable and my body wanted to take a deeper breath, I allowed it.…